I like to be alone but i don't like lonely~~

Frustrated after the bad lucks come to me... 
Felt lonely when the love is away from me...
What would happen if this keep going on my lifes? 
What can I negotiate to pay for the rest of my lifes?
I am lucky than most of the people in the world, current situation make me feel moody, instead of study what can I do else? 
Felt lonely when I cant wordy to someone of my sucks matters...
Felt psycho when I felt lonely~~!!!